The Devil is in the Details
Published June 18th, 2007I haven’t slept well in three nights now. It’s the dreams I keep having, each more upsetting than the last. I don’t know if I’m sick, and they’re fever dreams, or I’m just capping a bad week last week with bad dreams from stress. I don’t know. But my brain has decided to dredge up all kinds of disturbing things. Not always things that would disturb anyone else necessarily, just things that affect me deeply. Seeing someone I haven’t seen in a very time, and them being angry at me. Being lost while searching for soemthing I know I’m supposed to have. Being late for something. Feeling sick and someone being angry at me for it. Being chased by people. Being trapped.
Just when I think I’ve stopped thinking of someone, my brain betrays me, when I’m asleep and not looking, by thrusting them back into the forefront of my mind. And not in a good way. After looking at them the next day, I can pick out why I dreamt of many of the things - but not always why the people involved had to be who they were. Why is it that the people I miss the most haunt me in my dreams? Why is that fair?
dreams like life are not fair. the strangest are the ones that lead me to having a deja vu even years later! i actually had a deja vu of a dream i had many years ago just last week at work!
j.j.
I usually have those types of dreams when I have some big decision to make that I can’t make up my mind about or some big change occurring that I don’t know how it will turn out. Basically any time the future is unknown.